so selfish

24 hours in a day well-spent. 

One hour of yoga is a blip on a 24 hour day. 

I would argue that one hour of yoga won't transform your life. Because your life is the remaining 23 hours in your day.

Save room for a good night's sleep, hopefully a minimum of 8 hours. Any adult that tells me they can run on 4-5 hours, I tend to think you're nuts

There's so much science to sleep. I won't get into it too much but you need to sleep, people. Your brain needs to restore and rejuvenate. Not just your brain, but your entire body. For the new parents out there, I feel for you. I hope, goddess willing, you've got some support so you can get some shut-eye.

24 hours in a day. 8 hours of sleep. 1 hour of yoga. 

15 hours remaining. 

You can do the math for yourself and what you devote your time and attention. I suck at math so I'll stop there. 

I started practicing yoga because a friend offered to buy me a beer if I went to class with her. That was almost 10 years ago. Yoga, to me, became sweet (and hard) humble pie.

7 years ago, this practice saved my life.

I don't know how to word that or say that out loud with people without them going hush. It is not my intention when sharing my story. What I often see or hear is pity like, "oh, you poor thing." I hate that. 

Maybe that's why people don't talk openly about hard life shit or mental illnesses.

More than hating that feeling, I believe it's important to talk about such stuff.

People either pity or try to fix you.

I have never felt pitiful or the need to be fixed. 

I needed to be.

I practiced yoga during a time I wanted to die.

And the reason I am here is because I dedicated myself to something more than yoga. 

I dedicated myself to myself. 

That's what this practice has taught me.

This is one of the biggest reasons I teach. To hold space for you on your mat and the remaining 23 hours in your day. To not pity you or try to fix you. Just to be with you as I have had others be with me.

This practice is more than a check-off. It's more than a hobby or trend or about wearing the latest pants. It's definitely more than what media portrays. I don't know if it's possible to encapsulate in a post or even this email. I'm not sure it's entirety could live in a book. 

I only know that my life changed when I actively started participating in it. Choosing myself every damn day.

What if we gave every hour of the day everything we've got? Even the moments of doing nothing. Give everything to nothingness. 

Like my friend, Dan, says: "everything is everything."

Be unshakably dedicated to yourself. 

Surround yourself with people that know how to take great care of themselves. People who are unable to take care of themselves will not be able to take care of you (when/if ever needed).

Selfish is service.

Love,
Steph